You really sucked. I don’t like speaking ill of anyone, but you were the absolute worst. Everything was a knockdown drag-out fight with you and after a year of the foolishness, I’m not sorry to breakup with you or see you go. Every month you literally and physically became more cold, frustrating and dark. We’ve been through so many, “you’ve got to be kidding me moments” that it’s hard not rank our collective time together as a just sad. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way about you. Everyone I know and talk to is ready to disown you as a walking nightmare and are looking forward to starting anew.
That’s not to say, we didn’t have our good moments together. There were more than a few wins and happy occasions that made me temporary forget our troubles. You were good to me in a lot of ways but having to always be ready for a fight takes a toll. I am forever grateful for all the things I accomplished during our time together, but it simply isn’t enough to erase all the wrong you did to me and those around me.
So, I’m letting you go. I plan on happily moving on and I suggest you go the same. I’ve already got my eye on a new year and I’m bringing all my hope, strength, and passion with me to it. It’s not that I think the next 365 will be a cakewalk. Starting fresh never is. But, the lessons you taught me are fresh in my head and I’m taking nothing for granted in 2018. I’m giving it the best of me and am ready to put in the work to protect what matters to me.
This is goodbye 2017. I want to wish you well but I just to have it in me to care. I’m just going to leave you in my past and happily move into my present and towards my future. I’m confident with my decision and am finally feeling like myself again. If I had the power to leave you sooner, I would have!
No longer yours!
Charell Star | Not Just A Girl In A Dress